Poison Pen Journal 6/28/2006
Posted: Sat Jul 08, 2006 6:51 am
My door is all messed up. I've been off tour for a month already and I have to fix my door. So the dude comes over to fix it, see I live on the ground floor so I have to have mad doors because I'm in BK. So they changed the lock on my door and I have this other thing on the door so you can't just come in my crib. There was a big lock on the door. I come home and the motherfucker changes the lock and took the whole thing off the door. What the fuck is wrong with you? So I'm up there barking at the dude and he's in the hospital, and I'm like, "Who's fucking bright idea was this?" Anyways, what's up?
What else have I been up to this week? I have to get this contract worked out for some music. Motherfuckers are funny. You know how they bring this, this, and this to the table and offer you this. They offer me this deal that's 50/50 and it's cool. I'm not going to get jerked. I agree to do what they want to and I get the paperwork, and it's whatever. I'm no lawyer, but I'm reading it. What I read wasn't exactly what they were saying. They were talking it was non-exclusive and now it's exclusive. I have songs on the mixtape that will be on the album, and I had to get that fixed. I don't see the point of motherfuckers owning your masters and all sorts of dumb shit like that. They didn't write the fucking rhymes or make the fucking beats. We can split the money, that's cool, but you're not owning my masters. It's like having someone stay at your house and then they own your shit. You might have cooked me a meal and bought me some silverware, but this is my house. Motherfuckers try to own your shit and I'm not feeling that shit. I'm not talking about Duck Down, I'm talking about the mixtape.
This whole business is built on the artist getting fucked. It's foul. I love rhyming and getting money happens. I have to pay my rent, but that was never my motivation when I started rhyming. Why run around rapping for free when I can get paid for this shit? But why do motherfuckers need to own you? That's like slavery. I'm not against a major deal or deals, period, as long as the paperwork is right. At least if you sign a major contract, at least you can get a check that's decent enough to pay your rent for a year or two or something. If you go to an indie motherfucker, they're going to give you some paper but you can't buy a house or get a whip off that. If you get sick and go to the hospital, you're not getting taken care of. So you're going to own my shit? Motherfuckers are crazy. You have to come in with the mind-state that you're going to do it with or without motherfuckers. You're going to be the last person to eat off your own plate. I'm good though because I can read and I have a couple lawyers who are decent. The mixtape is still going to come out and I'm still going to get my paper. I just like to vent. It's good that I have this journal.
That's really what's on the agenda. I'm trying to finish this shit up and I had to change a few joints because it's coming out on a label now. The mixtape is a bootleg even though you're doing it yourself. They still have to clear certain samples and I had a joint with Technique over a Fat Joe beat and we had to change that. We had a couple of Alchemist beats because he's that dude, and I figured that was the only way I could get Alchemist beats because I don't know him. Everything is cool, though. I'm recording more songs for the fucking album. I'm just getting ready to get back on the road. That's it. I can't watch ECW anymore and I don't have the fuck channel anymore because I have to pay my Optimum Cable bill.
I'm going for Argentina for the World Cup for the simple fact that my engineer Ariel is from Argentina and he keeps beating me in the head about them. He tells me this long, drawn-out fairy tale about how he was one year0old and his pops took him to the World Cup. That's like his crowning achievement in life. I'm hoping Argentina takes it because if they don't, I'm probably going to have to go find another engineer and I won't get any good mixes anymore. Fucking Ariel.
I think DMX can afford a chauffeur by now. I think DMX needs to relax. I think DMX needs to chill and get someone who can get him to and from safely. DMX is bugging. If DMX is behind the wheel, I'm running for cover.
This Cristal shit is funny. I remember back in the day when I used to run around with Wyclef and the Fugees. I was a little high school dude running around being up in their video shoots and gaining experience. I wasn't really getting any money, but I was seeing stuff. We were at a club and we came through, this is back when the Fugees were still hot and Wyclef's album was double-platinum...He's got that song with Shakira out right now. He's not really on the rap shit. He's already past that. Back then though, the Fugees were still popping. We were in the club twenty-deep. They told me to go grab the bottles. I remember we went to the bar and they gave us three bottles of Cristal. Mind you, I was walking on the dance floor before and the girls weren't really following me, and I grabbed the three bottles, and word to my mother, all of a sudden I was the Pied Piper and bitches were starting to follow me because I had the Cristal in my hand. The bitches followed me all the way to the table because I had the Cristal. I thought that was so fucking stupid, but I didn't mind that they were following me.
They glamorize this shit to such an extent that it makes me laugh. People don't really spit about that shit anymore, but it's still viewed as the drink if you're doing it right. I heard some other shit is $1000 a bottle, but whatever. They glamorize it so much and all they're going to say they don't want the publicity. Why didn't they say that shit back in 1996? We're trendsetters and leaders no matter what. Everybody wants to eat off of what we do, but not give us respect. It's like owning the masters. They want to eat off what we do, but they don't want me to own my own stuff.
I don't rap for the sake of commercials and to throw in brand names. I don't give a fuck about that. The only thing I can endorse is some brass knuckles. I couldn't give a fuck about what you drink, smoke, or wear. They make fat boy sizes for me and I go to Crenshaw swap meets and buy two dozen t-shirts. I'm a Pro Club t-shirt dude. I'm not rhyming for the sake of commercials. I don't have anybody endorsing me so I'm not going to speak about them. If these idiots want to wait to see what the rappers are saying, they're fucking assholes and they don't even deserve to listen to music. If you were really a forward thinker, you would really just do what you wanted to. I don't need no rapper to tell me what to think. Fuck that. I don't need a rapper's approval. If I needed that, I wouldn't be rapping now. I'm a grown man. That's the reason I don't smoke right now. I'm not anti-weed, but I didn't smoke for the simple fact that everyone was smoking. I never gave a fuck about smoking. I've been high before, but that's not my forte.
I get fucked up. I'm probably one of the only dudes who started drinking at his legal drinking age. I started drinking at 21. I don't give a fuck about the Cristal situation. I kind of wish that this had happened years ago. Now people see that they're not for the people. They should have realized that years before that it wasn't geared for the people. They should have known that. Jay-Z said to drink Cristal, so Cristal was cool. Now he says don't drink Cristal, so no one does. If Jay-Z said he was going to do a mass suicide with the Kool-Aid, half the population would be dead. That shit is hilarious. We need to pass that Kool-Aid around and get rid of these fake motherfuckers. What he needs to say is buy the Poison Pen album.
I met up with Ras Kass today. He did that "Whut Part of the Game is That?" and he said, "If the new trend was hip-hop fags, half y'all motherfuckers would be dressing in drag." If being gay was cool, half these motherfuckers would have cocks in their throat. They're not drinking Cristal because of what Jay-Z said. I didn't drink it anyway, so I really don't care. They're saying don't eat pork? So what? I don't eat pork anyways. Well, I eat it sometimes, but you know how people hate.
I'm the perfect person HipHopGame could ask for a journal.
I have to actually go do my laundry now. Hold on, I'm going to go get my clothes ready. I knew I had to do something when I came home.
I have some more recording I have to do this week. I have to holler at Ras Kass and get him on this joint. I haven't told him about that yet. I'll call him after I write the rest of this journal. I'm getting the album artwork done and I have to get my checks so I can hit off my people and give them what they deserve. No more court this week. My record's clean. I beat the case in the Bronx. Fuck the police. That's about it. I'm going to do those HipHopGame freestyles this week too that I've been promising. I'm going to throw Akir on the shit if he brings his ass to the studio. I have some new songs too. I don't stop recording. Motherfuckers don't know so I don't have the luxury of just chilling and falling back. As soon as something comes out, I have to hit them with the next shit. The mixtape is done and I'm just trying to stay with some new shit. That's that. I'm doing more video game voices this week. They made me sign a confidentiality thing so I can't tell you about it yet. I did the Warriors and Grand Theft Auto. I stay busy. I party, drink, and get some pussy. That's what I have lined up for the week. That's about it. I'm going to do some spot dates with Boot Camp too. All I'm doing is writing rhymes and working on my stage show, trying to keep people interested. If I don't work, my black ass will be on the block, sitting here, doing nothing positive. No, I'm playing. This journal is very positive. It's very positive.
What else have I been up to this week? I have to get this contract worked out for some music. Motherfuckers are funny. You know how they bring this, this, and this to the table and offer you this. They offer me this deal that's 50/50 and it's cool. I'm not going to get jerked. I agree to do what they want to and I get the paperwork, and it's whatever. I'm no lawyer, but I'm reading it. What I read wasn't exactly what they were saying. They were talking it was non-exclusive and now it's exclusive. I have songs on the mixtape that will be on the album, and I had to get that fixed. I don't see the point of motherfuckers owning your masters and all sorts of dumb shit like that. They didn't write the fucking rhymes or make the fucking beats. We can split the money, that's cool, but you're not owning my masters. It's like having someone stay at your house and then they own your shit. You might have cooked me a meal and bought me some silverware, but this is my house. Motherfuckers try to own your shit and I'm not feeling that shit. I'm not talking about Duck Down, I'm talking about the mixtape.
This whole business is built on the artist getting fucked. It's foul. I love rhyming and getting money happens. I have to pay my rent, but that was never my motivation when I started rhyming. Why run around rapping for free when I can get paid for this shit? But why do motherfuckers need to own you? That's like slavery. I'm not against a major deal or deals, period, as long as the paperwork is right. At least if you sign a major contract, at least you can get a check that's decent enough to pay your rent for a year or two or something. If you go to an indie motherfucker, they're going to give you some paper but you can't buy a house or get a whip off that. If you get sick and go to the hospital, you're not getting taken care of. So you're going to own my shit? Motherfuckers are crazy. You have to come in with the mind-state that you're going to do it with or without motherfuckers. You're going to be the last person to eat off your own plate. I'm good though because I can read and I have a couple lawyers who are decent. The mixtape is still going to come out and I'm still going to get my paper. I just like to vent. It's good that I have this journal.
That's really what's on the agenda. I'm trying to finish this shit up and I had to change a few joints because it's coming out on a label now. The mixtape is a bootleg even though you're doing it yourself. They still have to clear certain samples and I had a joint with Technique over a Fat Joe beat and we had to change that. We had a couple of Alchemist beats because he's that dude, and I figured that was the only way I could get Alchemist beats because I don't know him. Everything is cool, though. I'm recording more songs for the fucking album. I'm just getting ready to get back on the road. That's it. I can't watch ECW anymore and I don't have the fuck channel anymore because I have to pay my Optimum Cable bill.
I'm going for Argentina for the World Cup for the simple fact that my engineer Ariel is from Argentina and he keeps beating me in the head about them. He tells me this long, drawn-out fairy tale about how he was one year0old and his pops took him to the World Cup. That's like his crowning achievement in life. I'm hoping Argentina takes it because if they don't, I'm probably going to have to go find another engineer and I won't get any good mixes anymore. Fucking Ariel.
I think DMX can afford a chauffeur by now. I think DMX needs to relax. I think DMX needs to chill and get someone who can get him to and from safely. DMX is bugging. If DMX is behind the wheel, I'm running for cover.
This Cristal shit is funny. I remember back in the day when I used to run around with Wyclef and the Fugees. I was a little high school dude running around being up in their video shoots and gaining experience. I wasn't really getting any money, but I was seeing stuff. We were at a club and we came through, this is back when the Fugees were still hot and Wyclef's album was double-platinum...He's got that song with Shakira out right now. He's not really on the rap shit. He's already past that. Back then though, the Fugees were still popping. We were in the club twenty-deep. They told me to go grab the bottles. I remember we went to the bar and they gave us three bottles of Cristal. Mind you, I was walking on the dance floor before and the girls weren't really following me, and I grabbed the three bottles, and word to my mother, all of a sudden I was the Pied Piper and bitches were starting to follow me because I had the Cristal in my hand. The bitches followed me all the way to the table because I had the Cristal. I thought that was so fucking stupid, but I didn't mind that they were following me.
They glamorize this shit to such an extent that it makes me laugh. People don't really spit about that shit anymore, but it's still viewed as the drink if you're doing it right. I heard some other shit is $1000 a bottle, but whatever. They glamorize it so much and all they're going to say they don't want the publicity. Why didn't they say that shit back in 1996? We're trendsetters and leaders no matter what. Everybody wants to eat off of what we do, but not give us respect. It's like owning the masters. They want to eat off what we do, but they don't want me to own my own stuff.
I don't rap for the sake of commercials and to throw in brand names. I don't give a fuck about that. The only thing I can endorse is some brass knuckles. I couldn't give a fuck about what you drink, smoke, or wear. They make fat boy sizes for me and I go to Crenshaw swap meets and buy two dozen t-shirts. I'm a Pro Club t-shirt dude. I'm not rhyming for the sake of commercials. I don't have anybody endorsing me so I'm not going to speak about them. If these idiots want to wait to see what the rappers are saying, they're fucking assholes and they don't even deserve to listen to music. If you were really a forward thinker, you would really just do what you wanted to. I don't need no rapper to tell me what to think. Fuck that. I don't need a rapper's approval. If I needed that, I wouldn't be rapping now. I'm a grown man. That's the reason I don't smoke right now. I'm not anti-weed, but I didn't smoke for the simple fact that everyone was smoking. I never gave a fuck about smoking. I've been high before, but that's not my forte.
I get fucked up. I'm probably one of the only dudes who started drinking at his legal drinking age. I started drinking at 21. I don't give a fuck about the Cristal situation. I kind of wish that this had happened years ago. Now people see that they're not for the people. They should have realized that years before that it wasn't geared for the people. They should have known that. Jay-Z said to drink Cristal, so Cristal was cool. Now he says don't drink Cristal, so no one does. If Jay-Z said he was going to do a mass suicide with the Kool-Aid, half the population would be dead. That shit is hilarious. We need to pass that Kool-Aid around and get rid of these fake motherfuckers. What he needs to say is buy the Poison Pen album.
I met up with Ras Kass today. He did that "Whut Part of the Game is That?" and he said, "If the new trend was hip-hop fags, half y'all motherfuckers would be dressing in drag." If being gay was cool, half these motherfuckers would have cocks in their throat. They're not drinking Cristal because of what Jay-Z said. I didn't drink it anyway, so I really don't care. They're saying don't eat pork? So what? I don't eat pork anyways. Well, I eat it sometimes, but you know how people hate.
I'm the perfect person HipHopGame could ask for a journal.
I have to actually go do my laundry now. Hold on, I'm going to go get my clothes ready. I knew I had to do something when I came home.
I have some more recording I have to do this week. I have to holler at Ras Kass and get him on this joint. I haven't told him about that yet. I'll call him after I write the rest of this journal. I'm getting the album artwork done and I have to get my checks so I can hit off my people and give them what they deserve. No more court this week. My record's clean. I beat the case in the Bronx. Fuck the police. That's about it. I'm going to do those HipHopGame freestyles this week too that I've been promising. I'm going to throw Akir on the shit if he brings his ass to the studio. I have some new songs too. I don't stop recording. Motherfuckers don't know so I don't have the luxury of just chilling and falling back. As soon as something comes out, I have to hit them with the next shit. The mixtape is done and I'm just trying to stay with some new shit. That's that. I'm doing more video game voices this week. They made me sign a confidentiality thing so I can't tell you about it yet. I did the Warriors and Grand Theft Auto. I stay busy. I party, drink, and get some pussy. That's what I have lined up for the week. That's about it. I'm going to do some spot dates with Boot Camp too. All I'm doing is writing rhymes and working on my stage show, trying to keep people interested. If I don't work, my black ass will be on the block, sitting here, doing nothing positive. No, I'm playing. This journal is very positive. It's very positive.