state of depression

[deafshady]

I'm in a state of total depression
Can't live my life without mopin or stressin',
I'm always the one open to pressure,
Always the one chokin' on artificial pleasure,
So instead of lookin' for a way ta get better
I'm lookin' for words for a suicide letter,
The mirror smashes on the ground and gleams
And I stare into the shards of a thousand hopes and dreams,
Falling to my knees I pray in chokes n' screams
I pray to god cause I'm falling apart like broken seams,
I opened up my oyster but the pearl wasn't bright enough
So I threw it back in the water... Shit life is rough,
If only I could take a breather, sit back and watch,
Just to ease this pain, Just to stop this clock,
The weight of the world's on my shoulders I think my back is breakin',
I feel like the soldier who just couldn't live up to the expectations
So I pop open my bottle of heaven and ease down the medication,
And just like that the heat gets lowered like ventilation,
But after my fun it doesn't matter, my head's still achin',
My life just goes full circle no pills can change it,
So tell me what the fuck do I do when I'm stuck in the glue,
I'm the loveless lowlife just lustin' for booze,
The city don't sleep, and I know that from experience,
Try layin' on concrete with no sheets n' tell me no fury hits,
I feel like a wandering soul inflicted with addiction,
I've kissed the lips of a devilish angel twisting my vision,
Nothing's real anymore.. So I'm just sifting through fiction,
Searching for a poisonous eviction..

[Borat]

Kinda emo at points but overall very self reflective I enjoy joints like this, I think you are getting better but this could use some polishing off on the structure

My life just goes full circle no pills can change it So tell me what the fuck do I do when I'm stuck in the glue, I'm the loveless lowlife just lustin' for booze, The city don't sleep, and I know that from experience Try layin' on concrete with no sheets n' tell me no fury hits I feel like a wandering soul inflicted with addiction, I've kissed the lips of a devilish angel twisting my vision Nothing's real anymore.. So I'm just sifting through fiction Searching for a poisonous eviction.

That's my fave part for sure... good shit man keep at it

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[FlipSide]

nice emotional drop duke......i liked the read