Healing
Posted: Sun May 08, 2011 11:37 am
[video]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jvHXe4fPP88[/video]
Now I'm starting to get the picture, and if it's clearer
then I refuse to hear her, see her, stand near her
alongside all the disrespect, like I couldn't feel the stress
with all of it still buildin' yet, all I ever seem to feel is neglect
only way to deal with it, is to flush the memories thats filled with shit
yea I'm pissed, and I can't understand why, everythings planned right?
how are you gonna stand by your man's side, and listen to another man's lies
judgemental, thinking all I ever did was throw 20 percent in
so if theres a 80 percentage, where did you place it for my share to be this thin
it's a combination that's sickenin', trust, I wish I didn't then
you said it's fine, and that the things we can do would be limitless
but now your playing the role that makes me look like I'm the asshole
so if your past goals, were to get him back, maybe that's cold
so cold I couldn't wrap my head around it, now all this bullshit surroundin'
got me feelin' like I should down this, no...maybe not but since I found it
it's made me think I ain't perfect, or my vote don't count towards the verdict
and if that's the case then this whole fling just turned out worthless
but who am I to suggest I care? considering I have love in another person
so while this situation is workin', I find myself mixed up for certain...
there's more subsiding in my mind, maybe this is just a waste of my time
but for me to feel this way, hate and love must've crossed that fine line
so with every trace I find another outlet to console the old me who might cry
but I'm far passed that, and it's too late in the show to backtrack
so wherever I react at...know it's only because I gotta surpass that...
that instance where I shouldn't be, or be where you wouldn't be
fllluck what we couldn't be, could've, somethin' you really shouldn't see
but this is just a moment to vent, a year or so this is the closest I been
now I'm borderlinin' that time where I really seem to know who I am
so I cleanse myself of the bickerin', arguin' over some ignant shit
so minus all of the sentiment, all the lies and the drinks we begin to binge
you know it was going no further, so I have no excuse if I hurt her
meanin' you, it's obvious that the comp could crash the server
along with inertia, push it closer, and it might just push me further
I could swerve my cursor, delete everything about you, forget the merger
act childish, but if it means nothin' to me why do I feel like this?
minus the sexual encounter, I don't see anything I like inside this
but you revealed what few would know, who woulda thought you would go
and that you would show up with him on your shoulder, you do it though...
and I could remove my soul, but I'm awoken, alive with pain I once felt
but I won't succumb, knelt to the ground praying for another one's help
because the pain for oneself, is growth for one, and only one...
selfish attitude, I compose that, and with that said I decompose trash
but won't act like I won't see you again, and me I'll be as a friend
I'm wearin' the suit now, officially tailored to fit me, I'm seein' amends
now all I'm doin' is waitin' for the weekend to end, don't weaken my end
updating your status like "I can't believe how happy I am gonna be again"
thinking I don't see it, to the point I really can't seem to believe it
shit wasn't official, but if you cared then you wouldn't be indecent
but let's be honest now, no lies now, because I already seem wifed down
even if she's not in my life now, I can hear her waitin' in the light now
realizin how stupid I been runnin' around with you for nights now
so let the dust collect, let it get wiped down, your a part of my life now
and regardless of how I see you, I can't really seem to put the light down
there's that shining moment where I felt like "I really like this right now"
but now I know I was a pawn on the chessboard, or maybe I sensed less...more
so what's all this stress for, it's not stress it's a moment to mend more
create a new me with the old emotions that I wouldn't try to fend for
so with all paid expense, I don't rent out what holds this sense more...
let me clarify I ain't angered, I ain't sad and I ain't a player
I'm not endangered this is a moment to cope with the pen and paper
back together like we never left each others arms, grasped in some sort of prayer
this lifestyle I met in error, corrected everything my heart could bare....
Now I'm starting to get the picture, and if it's clearer
then I refuse to hear her, see her, stand near her
alongside all the disrespect, like I couldn't feel the stress
with all of it still buildin' yet, all I ever seem to feel is neglect
only way to deal with it, is to flush the memories thats filled with shit
yea I'm pissed, and I can't understand why, everythings planned right?
how are you gonna stand by your man's side, and listen to another man's lies
judgemental, thinking all I ever did was throw 20 percent in
so if theres a 80 percentage, where did you place it for my share to be this thin
it's a combination that's sickenin', trust, I wish I didn't then
you said it's fine, and that the things we can do would be limitless
but now your playing the role that makes me look like I'm the asshole
so if your past goals, were to get him back, maybe that's cold
so cold I couldn't wrap my head around it, now all this bullshit surroundin'
got me feelin' like I should down this, no...maybe not but since I found it
it's made me think I ain't perfect, or my vote don't count towards the verdict
and if that's the case then this whole fling just turned out worthless
but who am I to suggest I care? considering I have love in another person
so while this situation is workin', I find myself mixed up for certain...
there's more subsiding in my mind, maybe this is just a waste of my time
but for me to feel this way, hate and love must've crossed that fine line
so with every trace I find another outlet to console the old me who might cry
but I'm far passed that, and it's too late in the show to backtrack
so wherever I react at...know it's only because I gotta surpass that...
that instance where I shouldn't be, or be where you wouldn't be
fllluck what we couldn't be, could've, somethin' you really shouldn't see
but this is just a moment to vent, a year or so this is the closest I been
now I'm borderlinin' that time where I really seem to know who I am
so I cleanse myself of the bickerin', arguin' over some ignant shit
so minus all of the sentiment, all the lies and the drinks we begin to binge
you know it was going no further, so I have no excuse if I hurt her
meanin' you, it's obvious that the comp could crash the server
along with inertia, push it closer, and it might just push me further
I could swerve my cursor, delete everything about you, forget the merger
act childish, but if it means nothin' to me why do I feel like this?
minus the sexual encounter, I don't see anything I like inside this
but you revealed what few would know, who woulda thought you would go
and that you would show up with him on your shoulder, you do it though...
and I could remove my soul, but I'm awoken, alive with pain I once felt
but I won't succumb, knelt to the ground praying for another one's help
because the pain for oneself, is growth for one, and only one...
selfish attitude, I compose that, and with that said I decompose trash
but won't act like I won't see you again, and me I'll be as a friend
I'm wearin' the suit now, officially tailored to fit me, I'm seein' amends
now all I'm doin' is waitin' for the weekend to end, don't weaken my end
updating your status like "I can't believe how happy I am gonna be again"
thinking I don't see it, to the point I really can't seem to believe it
shit wasn't official, but if you cared then you wouldn't be indecent
but let's be honest now, no lies now, because I already seem wifed down
even if she's not in my life now, I can hear her waitin' in the light now
realizin how stupid I been runnin' around with you for nights now
so let the dust collect, let it get wiped down, your a part of my life now
and regardless of how I see you, I can't really seem to put the light down
there's that shining moment where I felt like "I really like this right now"
but now I know I was a pawn on the chessboard, or maybe I sensed less...more
so what's all this stress for, it's not stress it's a moment to mend more
create a new me with the old emotions that I wouldn't try to fend for
so with all paid expense, I don't rent out what holds this sense more...
let me clarify I ain't angered, I ain't sad and I ain't a player
I'm not endangered this is a moment to cope with the pen and paper
back together like we never left each others arms, grasped in some sort of prayer
this lifestyle I met in error, corrected everything my heart could bare....
