grass stains
Posted: Mon Jun 09, 2008 5:54 am
As you guys know, im doing things through the phone so the format is never going to be as neat as my old pieces, but hey, you guys wanted to see somthin new from me so i wrote to show some elevation, and i hope you guys can see it...
[font=Lucida Console]I hate-to-admit, my life lately-is-shit, almost make my way-to-the-slits,
I pray-to-just-quit cuz everything I love and live for just lays-in-some-ditch
I wish my life was easy and I can just get away-and-forget,
but my heart is racing but not for some play-from-a-bitch
I wasn't perfect ma and I thank you for even dealin-wit-me,
when I was weak, you were the shield-just-for-me
She was my life and the realest to me, u made meals-just-4-me,
and now I call God a hypocrit for stealin-my-queen
All the food you cooked and the dinners I'd request,
through thick n thin your love was always put to test,
but u showed ur always the best...
Taught me to walk, talk, and how to really impress,
u gave me warmth and pillows and all my clothes to dress,
you will never be loved any less...
All the lullabies-in-the-dark, chasin butterflies-at-the-park,
I wish I had-still, now the pain dropped on me like an anvil
My life at a stand-still, I remember u fed me food from ya hand-filled,
im in so much hurt now cuz u used to be my advil
Childish-it-seems, but even through the wildest-of-dreams
I never thought it wud be the way that God-would-end-it
I did not-accept it, what was thought-expected,
all rhe thoughts-rejected but i freeze now that all the shock's-connected
Now I Hope these Memories of the past-brings the very last-pains,
the very last drops of tears as if it were the last-rain
I can only save-these-years-u-left-me
As I kneel in the front of ur grave-wit-tears-so-empty,
my knees filled with grass-stains...
I wish u lived forever, no one else deserved-it-more,
if u had a grade in life u'd get the perfect-score,
I don't know what else-to-say...
All the "I love you's" I wish I heard-it-more,
im sorry for all of this, I guess my heart's just hurt-and-sore,
and in-self-dismay...
I wanted to let go but I felt my heart lie,
I wanted to jump off a building or a mountain-side
My hairs stood and I looked down-n-cried,
and I felt the ground go colder as they put u down-inside,
The skies turned gray and the sun disappeared,
all the thoughts in my mind was all in-a-smear,
gone is the bliss-u-provided As I fall in-this-fear,
I already miss-your-guidance, and as the smile you used to give me fades
...all i can really kiss-is-this-silence...
Now I Hope these Memories of the past-brings the very last-pains,
the very last drops of tears as if it were the last-rain
I can only save-these-years-u-left-me
As I kneel in the front of ur grave-wit-tears-so-empty,
my knees filled with grass-stains...
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[font=Lucida Console]I hate-to-admit, my life lately-is-shit, almost make my way-to-the-slits,
I pray-to-just-quit cuz everything I love and live for just lays-in-some-ditch
I wish my life was easy and I can just get away-and-forget,
but my heart is racing but not for some play-from-a-bitch
I wasn't perfect ma and I thank you for even dealin-wit-me,
when I was weak, you were the shield-just-for-me
She was my life and the realest to me, u made meals-just-4-me,
and now I call God a hypocrit for stealin-my-queen
All the food you cooked and the dinners I'd request,
through thick n thin your love was always put to test,
but u showed ur always the best...
Taught me to walk, talk, and how to really impress,
u gave me warmth and pillows and all my clothes to dress,
you will never be loved any less...
All the lullabies-in-the-dark, chasin butterflies-at-the-park,
I wish I had-still, now the pain dropped on me like an anvil
My life at a stand-still, I remember u fed me food from ya hand-filled,
im in so much hurt now cuz u used to be my advil
Childish-it-seems, but even through the wildest-of-dreams
I never thought it wud be the way that God-would-end-it
I did not-accept it, what was thought-expected,
all rhe thoughts-rejected but i freeze now that all the shock's-connected
Now I Hope these Memories of the past-brings the very last-pains,
the very last drops of tears as if it were the last-rain
I can only save-these-years-u-left-me
As I kneel in the front of ur grave-wit-tears-so-empty,
my knees filled with grass-stains...
I wish u lived forever, no one else deserved-it-more,
if u had a grade in life u'd get the perfect-score,
I don't know what else-to-say...
All the "I love you's" I wish I heard-it-more,
im sorry for all of this, I guess my heart's just hurt-and-sore,
and in-self-dismay...
I wanted to let go but I felt my heart lie,
I wanted to jump off a building or a mountain-side
My hairs stood and I looked down-n-cried,
and I felt the ground go colder as they put u down-inside,
The skies turned gray and the sun disappeared,
all the thoughts in my mind was all in-a-smear,
gone is the bliss-u-provided As I fall in-this-fear,
I already miss-your-guidance, and as the smile you used to give me fades
...all i can really kiss-is-this-silence...
Now I Hope these Memories of the past-brings the very last-pains,
the very last drops of tears as if it were the last-rain
I can only save-these-years-u-left-me
As I kneel in the front of ur grave-wit-tears-so-empty,
my knees filled with grass-stains...
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