Where Am I?

[QwarterZ]

Sometimes I want to stay away from the crowd
I feel like dumbing down when other people come around
feeling like my raps is a high and I'm coming down
I still ain't touched the ground I'm bugging out...
cuz the world keeps spinning and I'm just waiting
used to say fuck waiting skipped town from the bus station
became a bum in seconds, minutes, I don't know WHAT I'M SAYIN'
I want patience but I'ma doctor without a degree and a glove station
I reach for heart, find pain, and continue to dissect it
put it into perspective, put it on the table and project it
I add it to the many problems in the world a microscope perfected
can you feel it? recollected I'm the antibody my sickness rejected....
I'm normal ain't I? or is it just a thought of a insane mind?
I felt like I ain't right, but I put my pen to my plate like
THIS IS WHAT I EAT, ink drips off my mouth like the paint dry
so I'm paintin' ain't I? or am I just strokin' my page with blank eyes?
so my mind creates the picture, or my eyes do but they bitter
so I'm cryin' for a sinner? why? I don't know but time just fissured
time got grounded and I'm feelin' like I'ma miss my fingers
I'm lustful for divine integers, and I ain't findin' my mixture
so I'm like einstein with my grind...I'm like I'm fine
I don't know I'M TRYING, I get up but I feel like I'M LYING
I'm telling you I'm writing, but I feel like I'm denying...I'm sighing
I'm hurt I'm dying, maybe my mind tells me so much, my mind's binding...light dying
my sight grows blurrier, and I start feeling like I'm lost......

where am I?


Caught up in Joe Budden's Sidetracked....track

[QwarterZ]

Hmmm....that may be true...then again what if I have the NEED to write? LoL!