Mask

[Omega Bill]

I've experienced lonely, and it's happiness I seek
I know Im not the only one, who sees me as weak
You can look into my eyes and see the darkest of reds
Its no surprise Im dying, but I'm the farthest from dead
I am alive and well, but I am not alive and strong
I'm alive just to live, and wonder where I went wrong
I can only dwell on the past because the future is unclear
I was always the outcast and finding love was my fear
I can get through the obstacle that many claim tough
Then I stop and remember why Im not good enough
I've changed my whole life to look aesthetically pleasing
Im shell of a man who only looks to be breathing
Im gasping for air hidden under the muscles and tattoos
And its nerve wracking to stare at a reflection thats not you
I adapt to the world to skate by for the rest of my time
But one day Ill wake up and retake the life that is mine
Until that day, you wont see my tears as my eyes dare to swell
You only see lies, because this is my mask, and I wear it well

First thing I've written in probably over a year.

[young_jobe]

not bad..

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