My Brain

[complexity]

If you could see inside my mind, you'd find
the dividing line, between intellectual and perceptual
you could rewind to effortless writtens
where explicit thoughts were sitting
a mind not in perfect condition
designed with the circuit missing
you'd find signs of brain rot and insane plots
vein clots, in the same spots where my shames blocked
off, I blame not the weed, the train stops there
or the lots of shots, I took as youth to relieve
the truth, where I burn brain cells so I don't leave the proof
you'd see the loose cables, where the stupid comes out
where i let the truth move in and out
you'd be in the drought, cuz the flow is cut
you would know this much, if you could hold it up
it would be lightweight in your hands
a tight grip would crush, the memories I can't stand
the blood would rush from my brain
like a can of rush, it would cancel pain
out like a math problem, it would solve ages of hurt
developed ever since the first stage of my birth
then i would fade in to nothing
meaning i would be made in to something

[drunken jesus]

If you could see inside my mind, you'd find